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tonight i strip myself of my name, my status, my lineage, my titles. i remove the academic standards, responsibilities, societal roles, relationships, and familial duties.
tonight i let go of inhibitions, of judgements, pre-conceived notions, pride, doubts, idealisms, all forms of annoyance, anger, discontent, regret, complaints, "what might have beens", evil thougts, and dark innuendos.
tonight i give up my convictions, faith, beliefs, my philosophies, my morals. i scatter my embarassments, mistakes, wrong decisions, insecurities, my unrealized dreams.
tonight i am nothing more than anyone who has given up on dreams and ambitions. i am a face among many, someone to be ignored, forgotten, and left alone in my own little world. tonight i am the lowest form of being. lacking knowledge, experience, friends --- basking on the seemingly comforting blanket of ignorance and self-created truths.
tonight, among many other nights, i am letting go of what i have become.
if and when i stare into the mirror,
who shall i see?
definitely not me.
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