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this christmas, by far, is the shortest holidays break in my life.
after almost two weeks of continuous scholastic work, im back to my anscestral house for a very brief stay. my thesis group would be meeting again on the 26th, and though my heart and spirit refuse to abide by this, i gotta comply. i just have to. haaay. no christmas break.
sabi nga ni mom, "huwag mo nang hanapin ang wala, anak".
oo nga naman. speaking of "wala", i got this nice, sapul quote:
bakit kung alin ang bawal, yun ang ginagawa natin?
kung alin ang wala, yun ang hinahanap natin...
parang pagmamahal sayo, bawal pero ginagawa ko...
parang pagmamahal mo, wala pero hinahanap ko...
oha. :) anyway, i saw someone last week...someone i never got to see for a while. right there and then i was reminded of that thing kris and i were talking about sometime ago: not liking the perfect one.
its not that i dont like this person, as in like. but ever since i realized that he's the image that fits my "perfect one", i also started to wonder why i didn't develop any crush or desire (in a very innocent way, haha) towards him. i mean, i should, right? being my "perfect one" and all that? but no. he's always JUST been the good friend. and ive always had this issue in my head. for sometime now ive been trying to find some answers, but unfortunately, there's still none. eto yung isa sa mga "wala" na gusto kong maging "meron"! i need to get acceptable answers! :) haysus!
anyway, im weird. i dont know if its just me or its really colder here in the Bundok B. back in the apartment, i sleep with only a thin piece of blanket keeping me warm. but here, i had to get up to get the wool blanket to put over my regular one. i also had to wear a sweater to keep myself from shivering. at electric fan lang yan ang kasalo ko dyan ah. mom wonders why i still keep the fan when i bury myself in sheets and blankets. i dont know. :) maybe its psychological. i need to hear something other than crickets and dead silence. :)
oh well. by midnight today it will be christmas. to you who's reading this now, have a truly blessed one. :p enjoy the feasts!!!
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